There’s so much on my mind right now,
but the only thing that keeps me going, is you. Just you.
And without you, I’m nothing. I really am nothing…
I realised how fragile this can be.
One moment everything seems fine, but suddenly everything changes as the hands of the clock take its rounds.
Cold winds blowing against my face..
But keeping myself warm with the warmth I’ve received from you.
I really hate myself for over-thinking.
and how much I hate myself for making her think that it’s her fault.
I can’t be much of a help when I promised myself that I’d help her no matter what, but I’m just making things worse, making her feel worse.
I hate to see you suffer, suffering alone by yourself in silence and blaming yourself.
Y’know it really hurts when all I can do is just watch you suffer while not being able to do anything to lessen that pain or cheer you up.
I really love seeing/making you smile and it puts a smile to my face too but I’m always reminded that there’s a part of you I just can’t save..
But I really want to put away that misery you have, and I will, someday.
Nobody understands, and I guess nobody will.
time to stop
deceiving myself
actions > the cumulative combination of words, thoughts and ideals
cold hard fact
